The best sport ever..

For years I’ve been dwelling with this dream.. To see Cam Sur in person and try the ultimate sport that I like… WAKEBOARDING!

Now that’s my next destination. Hopefully, anytime soon i can go to CamSur.

But as of the moment, I’ll go to Albang Town Center to buy something for a friend and something for myself.. lol.. And probably have a cap of coffee on Starbucks..

These past few days I am really having a hard time of dealing with what my destiny wants to happen.

I was profound when I posted on my shout out that “I am a fucking failure!” I feel so fidgety. It seems that everything is not doing pretty well and is not according to what I am planning. I tried to be quiescent, but I am sick and tired of this pretending. I can never accept that I am a ‘fucking failure.’

The motley of problems is killing me softly and I ecstatic what the next ingredient is. What is going to fall and to break tomorrow or the next day? Can I still hold on, or will I finally lose my grip.

My friends would always say, “Do not think about your problems, they will just come to leave.” When will they leave? They are staying within for like forever, and worst, they are inviting more.

How will I dwindle the pain I am feeling, if in the first place I do not really know what is the right thing to do? How can I assure myself that I am on the right track, if most of the times I am erratic? How can I bring back my oomph, if I can feel some dander to myself?

It is so throbbing when reality bites. I cannot accept as true that reality is letting me be a futile dope.

Now I am hobbling in a path I do not know where I am leading. Now I am having these infidelities. I hope I just can put everything in oblivion and just live with raptures.

This is not mediocre. I had enough.

The following are my top favorite songs. The list is a mix of different genre from different years and even decade.

1. Wait For You Elliott Yamin

This song made me crazy during the time when it was really really big.  This single is romantic indeed. This is just one of my favorite Elliott single, there’s more to come!

2. Iris Goo Goo Dolls

This song was my ultimate favorite for years but because of the release of Wait For You, this song slipped to no. 2.  This City Of

Angels

soundtrack is very inspiring. Though it’s only on my no. 2, I believed that a lot of people think this is their ultimate favorite.

3. Wherever You Will Go The Calling

To date, this is The Calling’s biggest worldwide hit. This song is just so fantastic. And the voice is so rocking!

4. No Air Jordin Sparks feat. Chris Brown

This is the best collaboration ever. Both

Sparks

and Brown showed their amazing voice in this song. Though the lyrics are simple, the two made the song so wonderful. Probably, if I have to give an L.S.S. award, this song for me is the recipient.

5. Bad Day Daniel Powter

This is one of the most unforgettable songs ever. I can still remember the moment I first heard this song in American Idol. I was asking everyone about the song but no one could answer me. Though by that time I don’t know the title and the artist I already fell in love with the song.

6. Bye Bye Mariah Carey

It’s a lil’ bit corny to see Mariah’s name here, but this song is absolutely fantastic. Lyrics wise, this song can make every listener cry especially those who lost somebody.

7. You’re The Voice David Archuleta

I prefer to post Archuleta’s name rather than John Farnham because I like Archuleta’s version more, though Farnham’s original version is also great. Honestly, I don’t know the song before Archuleta performed it in American Idol. After hearing it, I immediately downloaded the original version and I actually loved it. After almost a week, I downloaded the studio version of Archuleta and for me it’s much better.

8. With You Chris Brown

This is best Chris Brown song aside from No Air. This is a perfect prom night song and the video is also the best. I love the dance moves.

9. Apologize Timbaland feat. One Republic

This is a big twist for saying you’re sorry - that made the song phenomenal. Ryan’s voice is amazing. Also, the song gives me goosebumps.

10. Behind These Hazel Eyes Kelly Clarkson

This single by Kelly Clarkson is blazing hot and the video is also one of the best I’ve seen. Also, the song showcased Clarkson’s powerful voice. This song made be a bigger fan of Kelly Clarkson.

The next songs are songs that didn’t made it to my top ten.

11. Behind Blue Eyes Limp Bizkit

12. Untitled Simple Plan

13. I Can Love You Easy Christian Bautista

14. Hey There Delilah Plain White T’s

15. Love Song Sara Bareilles

16. Open Arms Journey

17. Because Of You Kelly Clarkson

18. You Are The One Elliott Yamin

19. This Love Maroon 5

20. Breakaway Kelly Clarkson

21. Our Lives The Calling

22. One Word Elliott Yamin

23. Welcome To The Black Parade My Chemical Romance

24. Incomplete Backstreet Boys

25. Blue Sky Hale

26. Una Sponge Cola

27. Won’t Go Home Without You Maroon 5

28. Tell Her Jesse McCartney

29. Pieces Of Me Ashlee Simpson

30. Rockstar Nickelback

31. Lovestoned Justin Timberlake

32. Kung Wala Ka Hale

33. Your Guardian Angel The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

34. All Good Things Come To An End Nelly Furtado

35. Bleeding Love Leona Lewis

36. Gemini Sponge Cola

37. What Goes Around Comes Around Justin Timberlake

38. How To Save A Life The Fray

39. Stupid Mistake Gareth Gates

40. Thnks Fr Th Mmrs Fall Out Boys

41. Walking In The Rain A1

42. I’m All About You Aaron Carter

43. I Need To Know Mark Anthony

44. Inconsolable Backstreet Boys

45. One Last Cry Brian McKnight

46. Everytime A1

47. My Love Justin Timberlake

48. Home Westlife

49. How Many Words Blake Lewis

50. Take A Bow Rihanna

1. You are talking to yourself.
2. You always think of the negative things.
3. You feel alone.
4. You feel like leaving.
5. You feel like quitting all the stuff that you are into.
6. You always cry at night.
7. You’re always mad.
8. You feel that the whole world is mad at you.
9. You’re spending too much time on tv, radio or computer.
10. You cannot write properly.
11. You’re always singing.
12. You don’t want to do chores.
13. You want to go to the beach.
14. You are thinking about peace.
15. You hate politics so much.
16. You don’t laugh on jokes.
17. You always look yourself in the mirror.
18. You’re wasting time in the bathroom doing nothing.
19. You take a bath at night rather than at morning.
20. You feel RIDICULOUS.

Sometimes, even if we try to please everyone by doing the right thing, some people would still be unsatisfied. Some will not appreciate and even respect what you say and what you do. Whatever you do, still there will be people who will let you down, but as long as you speak honestly not only from the heart, but also from the mind, you’ll be fine.

This is not a perfect world. It is not perfect. It is almost always unfair but life loves the person who dares to live it. Be positive and be strong because no matter what, at the end of the day the first person who will help you would be yourself.

Keep holding on!